Love For My Girlfriend
December 7, 2007
i don’t know who will read this but its value is something substantial for me. i have been dating for 8 months now and i love my girlfriend more than i love myself. if i could marry her today i would. i’d take bullets for her, lose function of my legs for her, give her my organs if she needed them but i’m scared that she just doesn’t acknowledge enough of this. why this makes me scared is that if she keeps fighting with me and plays that distance game then i am going to kill myself. that’s right. swallow the pack of sleeping tables hidden beneath the underwear in my draw, finish the rest of the scotch in my cabinet and then hang onto the ledge outside my apartment window until i pass out. yes i have thought about this over and over because then she will at least know the impact she has had on me and the extents i would go for her. and everyone wants somebody to die for them right? except me.
in two days i will be dead.
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i feel the same. what preconception of you does have in her mind.
or you could always take that love and find some1 else to start over with.
If it was real, true love, you would give her time. What you’re describing is a selfish obsession. She is your girlfriend, correct? It’s not like she doesn’t give you the time of day.
You’re…odd…Give her time and treat her right. That’s all you can do.
Get your whole head in front of the shotgun.